Despair

Life takes me as it desires.. like a wild river..

Striking me in the wild stones..

Throwing me down out of the blue..

Raising me gradually that I miss to taste success until I fall down again

Then, I am left with pain to endure and not the past success to reminisce

People say we were born alone and die alone but we don’t live alone..

Every one needs some one to hold on to like an anchorage

I needed you…. to let me be still momentarily and enjoy

I wanted you to hold my hands and say that you are here and

walk with me through those hard times

Was that so much to ask?

Why didn’t you come then…

Don’t name it affection.. the meaning is lost..

Don’t call it friendship.. as I seek you only in pain..

Don’t call it lust.. the purity is lost..

Don’t call it infatuation..I never wanted u just for myself..

Nor am I jealous when you are with others..

Does it need to be defined.. Don’t we know what it is..

Are you clueless still, then

Call it a selfish desire of a girl to hold on to you when in pain

I try to reach you… to melt down in your hands

Still you never come for me..

Are all my restless longing.. going off worthless

Why is that I find myself alone in the turbulence of life..

Do you want me to resolve it myself?

Why don’t you come to me God with just a ray of hope?

So that I would desire to live a little longer..

Rather than carry on like holding a heavy animal carcass on my back?